I thought our blog readers might like to hear the story of how we came to be adopting. I shared a short version of it on our Family Sponsorship Page, but I'm going to do a series of posts going into a little more detail.
It's been almost a year since I visited Reece's Rainbow at the start of our adoption journey. It wasn't the first time I'd been to the site, but it was the first time in quite a while, and this time was different. This time I was drawn in and couldn't stay away.
Growing up I'd always kind of thought I'd adopt in addition to having biological children, but it was never a conviction or anything, just an idle thought in the back of my mind. After Jacob and I were married he said he wasn't interested in adopting, and I just shrugged and thought, "Well, I guess I won't, then." And that's where it stayed for a long time.
But when I visited Reece's Rainbow again last year it was different. Even though I knew Jacob didn't want to adopt, I couldn't stop looking at all the faces. Even before I saw our daughter's picture, I came back most days and just looked through the pictures. Then one day, a couple of weeks into this, I noticed "Brigitte"'s picture for the first time. I think she'd been there all along, but this was the first day I'd taken particular notice of her as one particular little girl, rather than just one in a long line of pictures. And when I did notice her, I felt it.
It was the same thing I'd felt when I knew I was supposed to marry Jacob, the same thing I'd felt before I got pregnant with each of my boys. It was God very clearly telling me "This is your daughter". After that I was obsessed. I kept her picture up on my computer constantly, and looked at it throughout the day. I read, researched, and talked to people, figuring out what would have to happen for us to bring her home. And more than anything else, I prayed, because I knew unless Jacob decided adopting was a good idea, she would never be mine, no matter what I felt.
That was about 10 months ago, so there's a lot more to the story before we get to where we are now, but that's about all I've got time for tonight. More soon...